Come On

I dream a dream as time gone by,
when hopes were high and life worth living.
I dream that love would never die,
I dream that God would be forgiving.

Then I was young and unafraid,
and dreams were made and used and wasted.
There was no ransom to be paid,
no song unsung no wine untasted.

I had a dream my life would be,
so different from this way I'm living,
so different from all it seems,
Now life has lost the dream I dream...

Hey rubber ducky, there's something i want to tell you... I'm alone. Just realised that I can never trust anyone. No one at all, no one except God. Maybe it's my fault. Maybe I'm just too sensitive. But I can't trust anyone now. Yea, guess it's my fault. I don't want to accept, but somehow, I always get this feeling that the things around me seem so...unreal. People aren't real anymore. The crowd is but a facade, ready to change at the turn of a page. Nothing seems real anymore. I feel alone. What should I do? Yea I know, I've always got you. But you can't do anything, you can't speak. But isn't that better? At least I trust you. At least I have you, and God. Guess I'm not that alone after all. But this journey still seems so quiet. Too quiet...

It would be nice to have someone walking beside me...

To God above, I want to walk by you again, to stand tall and unafraid with you, to bravely face the cold world together with you.

Father, I ask only of one thing this Christmas, my innocence. Guide me back to the way I was, bring me back to where I belong, take me back into your arms, fill me with your love, never let me leave your side, for now, for ever.

Journey of a dream, God. There was once, when I was young, I held your hands, I felt them, strong, firm, kind. Back then, they told me, our dream is to be like you, to be God-like. For me, to be with you all the time, was my dream. To walk beside you, knowing that nothing can harm me, was my dream. After, came this point of time, when i lost this dream. It lingered on. I soon grew reluctant to find this dream again. I thought I'd lost it forever. I thought I could never realise it again. Then, right now, in the most unexpected time, when I felt most helpless and afraid and confused, there it was. My dream. Sitting there, right in front of me, all the time. I just never bothered to search. Right now, I've found this dream, a light shines from it once again.

Father, guide me, with your strength, with your light, with your faith, make me what you want me to be. Make me whole again.